Essays

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Shadow Revelations

By Marina Gross-Hoy | February 6, 2023

Everything felt heavy. My eyelids, the child in my arms, the unrelenting stretch of time before dinner.  I lugged my son over to the swing set, managing to convince him that this would be an acceptable next step in our park experience. I stood behind him and pushed, the effort demanding the last dregs of…

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God’s Fingerprints On The Hardest Days

By Shauna'h Fuegen | January 30, 2023

“You need to leave from here and go directly to the hospital. He needs to be admitted tonight, and he will need surgery.”  There is so much I don’t remember about this moment. Was my 8-year-old son Andrew in the room with us when the orthopedist said these words to me? He must have been,…

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Never In A Million Years: Playing the Parenting Game

By Holly Forseth | January 23, 2023

Most days, I pop into my teenage boys’ rooms to plant a kiss on their heads. Sometimes it’s because I walk by, see their sweet little (actually, big) selves at the computer, and have the urge to say hi. Other times I realize I haven’t seen them in awhile, so I stop what I’m doing…

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Why I Stay

By Laura Johnson | January 16, 2023

There are days when I wonder why I’m still in the Church. Days when I am so jaded by the politics and hypocrisy and scandals that too often haunt our Christian communities that I wonder if there is anything left of the Church worth staying for. Is there anything left for my children to learn,…

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Fighting For Our Lives

By Justina Kopp | January 9, 2023

“I am very frustrated. I don’t understand why you can’t just be confident in our care!” My perinatal specialist yelled these words to me when I was around 24 weeks pregnant with quadruplets. Why? Because I was asking her questions about what my children’s birth might look like. Up to this point, no one had…

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Becoming Mama Bear: How losing my husband introduced me to a ferocious divine love

By Clarissa Moll | January 2, 2023

When our children were young, my husband Rob and I often took them for hikes in the nearby Cascade Mountains outside our home in Seattle. Home to approximately 20,000 black bears, Washington’s mountains required a healthy respect for wilderness, and we taught our kids how to do it. A hearty “Hey, bear!” alerted furry neighbors…

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letting go motherhood

She Never Regretted Her Yes

By Anna Bonnema | December 26, 2022

During the June after my triplets’ junior year of high school, I signed up for a five-day silent retreat about three hours north of my home. Right off the bat, I thought twice about going since I knew we were heading into their senior year, the last year they would live at home. Part of me…

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Forever Intertwined: Generations Together through Birth and Death

By Jessica Mathisen | December 19, 2022

2021 was a gut-wrenching year for our family, but it didn’t start that way. On a late January evening, my husband and I went on a much-needed date, talking over tacos and margaritas. I remember thinking that my period was late, and when we got home from our date, I took a pregnancy test “just…

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The Courage in My DNA

By Leticia Ochoa Adams | December 12, 2022

I grew up as an only child, born to a single mother. For most of my life, until I became a mom at 16, it was just me and my mom. She grew up in extreme poverty raised by a mother who had been raised in even more extreme poverty, and each of us had…

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Befriending An Introvert

By Holly Forseth | December 5, 2022

A handmade wooden sign hangs front and center in my living room with the words “we belong to each other”—a visible reminder that God created us for relationship. The snippet is from a longer quote attributed to Saint Teresa of Calcutta (Mother Teresa): “If we have no peace, it is because we have forgotten that…

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Complicated Joy

By Katie Cassady | November 28, 2022

For all of the beauty found in celebrating the liturgical year, I find that marking milestones by these holy seasons and rituals has a tendency to make whatever experience that much more intense and emotional for me. Pregnancy announcements during Advent—potent. Witnessing conversion and Baptism at Easter Vigil—stick a fork in me. Gifts of selflessness…

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Sacred Remnant: Discovering A Hidden Treasure in My Grandmother’s Life Story

By Alissa Molina | November 21, 2022

In the thick of the global pandemic when the whole world was wearied by the constant weight of pivoting to carry the newest very hard thing, our family lost its matriarch.   My maternal grandmother, Margarita “Mague” Moreno, passed away on the Feast of Our Lady of Guadalupe in December of 2020. Although stricken with grief,…

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