Why Taking Prenatal Vitamins is an Act of Faith
Because you’ve been down this road before, when the line turned more and more pink, leaving you without a shadow of a doubt: you’re pregnant.
Because you’re struck by the wildness of it all — nearly a year since the miscarriage. . . and this??
Because you’d finally settled into contentment, not the restless back and forth of, should we have another?
Because, ready or not, the decision has been made.
Because it is what it is. Denial and pretending that this can’t really be doesn’t negate that it’s actually happening.
Because loss is where you landed when you took this hopeful step before.
Because insanity is doing the same thing over and over expecting different results.
Because faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things unseen.
Because you can’t bear the weight of knowing that your unwillingness to add another pill to the daily regimen, simply because it says “prenatal” on the label, could negatively affect your. . . baby.
Because saying the word baby makes it real.
Because simply calling it a fetus won’t let you forget that it’s the name of a developmental stage of a life, an actual life.
Because you’re clear-eyed about it all, no rose-colored glasses. You really have no idea where this road will lead.
Because you really believe God is faithful.
Because you really believe God is good.
Because you really believe God withholds no good thing. No good thing.
Because sometimes you have to work out your belief when it is wavering.
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