For The Mornings We Yell
For the mornings we wake up determined to make it a better day, and then we don’t—
For the times we promise to soak up the sweetness of these fleeting years, and then we wish them away—
For the days we want to fill with laughter and song, and then they’re darkened by bad moods and cross words—
For the meals we make with love and hope that they’ll be enjoyed, and then we grit our teeth as they’re gagged while chewed—
For the playdates we plan to share the long days with good friends, and then we’re annoyed that a sick child screws up our plans—
For the naptimes when we catch up on the world’s news and resolve again to treasure the rare gift of healthy, safe, sheltered children, and then we’re screaming at them by suppertime—
For the eyes that want to look with love and capture how quickly our kids will be grown and gone, and then they narrow with frustration at messes and mistakes and missing shoes—
For the hands that hope to hold and hug and help, and then they clench into angry balls that bang on the kitchen counter when no one listens to us—
For the boiling-over moments when we try to breathe and breathe and not lose it completely, and then we do—
For the nights we try to treasure bedtime instead of tick off the minutes till we’re done, and then we’re flooded with guilt when closing the bedroom door behind us feels like the best part of the day.
For remembering we’re humans raising humans,
for knowing if we teach our children nothing else, we’ll teach them how to bend down and open arms and say I’m sorry because we have to do it daily ourselves,
for the chance to keep screwing up because it means we keep going,
for forgiving ourselves,
and learning slowly how forgiveness takes the shape of a cross—pulled down in love, stretched out in embrace.
For trying again.
For today. For you.
Copyright © 2013 by Laura Kelly Fanucci.