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announcing…

By Laura Kelly Fanucci | August 4, 2017

Here’s the big announcement I’ve been saving. In case you missed it in the brand-new Mothering Spirit newsletter, I have two new e-books available for you and yours: Prayers for Pregnancy was born from the prayers that bring so many to Mothering Spirit. I never expected how the prayers I wrote (when I couldn’t find pregnancy…

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what one good doctor taught me about grief

By Laura Kelly Fanucci | June 27, 2017

We were brand-new to the clinic, looking for a new doctor after our beloved pediatrician had retired. Our three living children are healthy as galloping horses—a simple fact made astonishing after the deaths of their two sick sisters. But they still need well-checks and vaccines and strep tests and a place to call about rashes…

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the best question anyone could have asked

By Laura Kelly Fanucci | June 5, 2017

With laughter from the party still ringing in my ears, I headed toward the coat rack, hoping to grab my jacket and slip quietly away into the early evening cool to make it home before dark. But just as I reached the door, he turned and caught my eye. We smiled. Who can resist the…

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leaving behind limbo

By Laura Kelly Fanucci | May 8, 2017

I have two items on my to-do list that I can’t get done: Order gravestone. Buy car seat. Every week they stare back at me blankly from my planner. Five simple words. One phone call to make. One purchase to click. Every week I turn away. I can’t tackle either one. (Yet.) Both must get…

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5 favorite books on motherhood

By Laura Kelly Fanucci | May 1, 2017

This post contains affiliate links. May means Mother’s Day. I’ve written before about the complicated nature of this holiday (and the need to remember all kinds of mothers on Mother’s Day). But it remains a beautiful time to celebrate the women who have mothered us—and the mothers that many of us are becoming. In honor…

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what it means to outlive

By Laura Kelly Fanucci | April 7, 2017

On the morning of my 22nd birthday, I woke disoriented. It was no youthful hangover. Not the tiring drag of gazing out onto another gloomy day of Indiana grey. No. I felt strangely lost. Adrift and unmoored. I had outlived him. It wasn’t supposed to be like this. Grief was woven into the fabric of…

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4 books on grief you’ll actually love

By Laura Kelly Fanucci | April 3, 2017

This post contains Amazon affiliate links. Trust me on these. I know, I know – I joke to my husband that over the past year, this blog morphed into “vaguely poetic reflections on life and death.” (I still scratch my head that anyone else wants to read along, but I’m so grateful you’re here!) But…

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was it a holy week?

By Laura Kelly Fanucci | March 3, 2017

This week we remembered the anniversaries of Maggie and Abby’s births and deaths. As I journeyed through the three days, a brutal triduum, I began to see how deepest grief can take the shape of the paschal mystery. Dying and rising. As the first year after loss ends, I find myself turning toward new directions.…

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what love looks like now

By Laura Kelly Fanucci | February 14, 2017

I had just thrown up when the doorbell rang. I wiped my mouth clean and pulled the door open to let February chill rush inside. “Laura?” asked the stranger. “Have a good day.” He handed me a hulking bouquet, plastic wrapped against the wind. “Ooo, Mama!” chirped the small boy at my knees. “Those are…

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the world is never ready

By Laura Kelly Fanucci | January 30, 2017

“How can you choose to have a child now?” She asked me honestly, the way a wise and good friend can. We’d spent half of dinner talking about how the world is spinning mad, careening out of control. And then she leaned over the table in flickering candlelight and asked me – me sitting there nauseous,…

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the journey of the magi (one year)

By Laura Kelly Fanucci | January 6, 2017

‘A cold coming we had of it, Just the worst time of the year For a journey, and such a long journey: The ways deep and the weather sharp, The very dead of winter.’ One year ago was when everything started to go wrong with our twins. When the worst-case scenario became the present-day reality. When…

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the homecoming

By Laura Kelly Fanucci | November 21, 2016

He stands at the top of the stairs, bare feet dancing in dinosaur pajamas. His bright eyes meet my own as I climb. His face beams with delight, blue stars flashing with brimming joy. MAMA! He shrieks with joy. MAMA! You are HERE! He tips his head backward, golden curls bouncing with glee. He laughs with bliss, bursts…

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Clear The List 2022

By Laura Kelly Fanucci | August 16, 2022 |

Thank you to all who have shared their back-to-school lists with us as part of our 1st crowdfunding effort! For weeks now we’ve been telling you about Mothering Spirit, the new ecumenical, collaborative community we’re launching this Labor Day to share stories, prayers, and resources from diverse voices to help you pray through parenting. But…

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Catechesis of the Good Shepherd: our home atrium

By Laura Kelly Fanucci | August 30, 2021 |

Want to learn how to introduce Catechesis of the Good Shepherd to your kids at home? My background Over the past year I’ve shared about our family’s home atrium on Instagram (part 1 and part 2) and in my Holy Labor newsletter (here). After I completed Level I training in the Catechesis of the Good…

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a month that changed the world

By Laura Kelly Fanucci | March 28, 2020 |

One month ago, I was in the hospital. The same hospital where my baby girls were born four years earlier. The same hospital where they each died in my arms, days later. One month ago, I was holding our newborn son. The same baby I pleaded to God to keep safe as I spent day…

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ten years

By Laura Kelly Fanucci | February 17, 2020 |

Exactly ten years ago this month, I started a blog. I told exactly no one. Not even my husband. My first baby was six months old. I was working part-time, overwhelmed and tired. I craved connection and community. I wanted breadth of thought and depth of prayer. I couldn’t find anything like what I wanted…

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the day before Christmas

By Laura Kelly Fanucci | December 24, 2019 |

Wherever they are, they have traveled far. Not at home, known and comfortable. Not on the road, exhausted from the journey. Arrived but unsettled. No room in the expected places, no welcome in the usual way. Whatever they expect, they can only imagine. Preparation leads to prayer’s edge: picturing what might be, trusting what could…

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the whole story

By Laura Kelly Fanucci | December 21, 2019 |

The told story is not the whole story. We tend to grasp onto moments as the whole. In a culture obsessed with tiny tweets and shiny surfaces, it’s easier to outrage or comfort ourselves with sound bytes that echo the thoughts between our ears, daily dulling our curiosity. We take the smallest sliver for the…

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waiting in womb-time

By Laura Kelly Fanucci | December 14, 2019 |

Pregnant women inhabit time in a whole new way. I’m 20 weeks, we declare. As if we were the child within us. As if we were the time itself. Our relationship to these womb-weeks is totalizing. Time means everything: how much time the baby needs, how much time we have left. But womb time is…

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another, again, anew

By Laura Kelly Fanucci | November 15, 2019 |

When we were dating, then engaged, then married, I used to catch a glimpse of him and think—God, please send us daughters. Because I had never met a man like him, so strong and gentle all at once, so humble and quietly confident, so genuinely kind and caring. I watched how he treated his mother,…

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the pitter-patter

By Laura Kelly Fanucci | July 19, 2019 |

Their feet crush me. Tiny toes curling, ancient reflex. Baby socks lost in the dryer like doll clothing. Toddler tiptoes to reach the sink. Preschool slip-ons for circle time. Sport shoes for season after season—cleats, sneakers, boots.  I know their feet intimately. Kiss them at diaper changes, sweet antidote to stink. Bathe them in bubbles…

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in an instant

By Laura Kelly Fanucci | July 16, 2019 |

Sitting at my desk, working on words of loss, I watch a thousand cottonwood seeds drift by the window. White wisps rising on the breeze, lifted from my sight. Summer’s snow globe, shaken and set to spin. I remember noticing them, as if for the first time, the summer after our twins died. One afternoon…

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a prayer for mother’s day

By Laura Kelly Fanucci | May 6, 2019 |

Each year on Mother’s Day, my heart goes out to those who struggle with this holiday. Inspired by this column on “How to Widen Our Hearts On Mother’s Day,” I’ve gathered prayers from readers into a litany to be prayed at church or at home – to remember all the mothers. Feel free to adapt…

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how to Holy Week: a guide for where you are

By Laura Kelly Fanucci | April 17, 2019 |

At the request of readers, I’m rounding up my favorite posts on Holy Week and Triduum. For wherever you are and wherever God may meet you this week…blessings on all of it, the mess and the joy. If you’re expecting: Labor’s Stages: A Triduum. If you have a new baby: Baby’s First Holy Week. If…

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