Grief

I have a first grader

I have a first-grader

By Laura Kelly Fanucci | October 2, 2015

Every morning my son goes off to school. He slings a giant shark backpack over his tiny shoulder, and he waves to me as I drive away from the carpool lane. And every morning as he turns into the school’s open door, the same fear catches my heart. What if that is the last time…

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empty due date

the empty due date

By Laura Kelly Fanucci | April 13, 2015

I wrote this on the anniversary of the due date that wasn’t.  I wasn’t going to share it here. Then I was reminded that we all carry our handful of hard days each year: the death of a loved one, the anniversary of an accident, the memory of a loss, the date of a tragedy. If we…

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miscarriage story

the trash tells the story

By Laura Kelly Fanucci | March 14, 2015

A month ago I ran into a friend as we were both rushing into church from the whipping winter wind. She held the door for me, and I sprinted inside, breathing steam. As we shivered in the entryway, trying to warm up, she said, “Oh! I meant to tell you – I read your book. I…

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pregnancy infant loss remembrance day

for all our children. tonight and always

By Laura Kelly Fanucci | October 15, 2013

This post was supposed to be about children. All weekend I had these wonderful thoughts running through my head. About how much I adore the age of four: how he appears in our doorway in the dark dawn hour, hair tousled from sleep, beloved seahorse cradled in his arm, ready to climb in bed with…

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the courage to forgive

Courage From The Tomb

By Laura Kelly Fanucci | April 3, 2013

What took more courage: going into the tomb or coming out? On Good Friday the thought of going into the tomb overwhelms me. Too much blood and betrayal, too much violence and grief. I drag my feet, wanting to stay in Holy Thursday where we break bread and wash each other’s dirt away. Yes, there’s…

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Ash Wednesday parent

Ash Wednesday: Every Parent’s Nightmare

By Laura Kelly Fanucci | February 23, 2012

Last night I lingered in a long line of blinking tail lights to turn into the parking lot. I wondered about the growing crowds at each year’s Ash Wednesday services. What packs the pews this evening every Lent? As I waited, I thought of four young girls killed in a weekend car crash. Freshmen roommates, victims…

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